and it got me thinking about the message in the song
about people just going through the motions day in and day out, lost in the monotony
just drudging through their lives missing the important things
so I wonder...
how similar am I to the people that he's mentioning in this song?
at first I just reassure myself, saying that I'm not like them, I'm different, I know what's important, I don't just follow along the same path everyday, mindlessly going through the motions
but then... I realize, that I'm no better than they. in fact I may be worse, because I fool myself into believing that I keep the important things in mind, and that I'm no mindless drone programmed by habit.
yet day after day my schedule is more or less the same, wake up, class, hw, go on the computer, eat, sleep and the cycle repeats itself with classes being cycled out on the weekend in exchange for sleep or hw or some other such thing.
I'm at my brother's house today, I've been here since thursday it's the first time I've been over since Spring break which ended over a month ago.
I'm here because about 2 weeks ago my brother and his wife had a baby.
So I'm here visiting, along with my sister-in-law's relatives
and I wonder... why haven't I stopped by before?
my school is about 5 miles away from my brother's house, yet I haven't visited in month's...
which leads me to wonder if I truly have my priorities right.
and I'm beginning to see that I don't
I do homework, but later, I keep procrastinating, even now (and yes I realize the irony)
so then all my work builds, and then you find me like I am now, swamped with work, without hope of reprieve, because as every day passes I find myself with more work to do, but not having accomplished the work I've been meaning to do for so long
So, now I'm forced with this dilemma...
how can I refocus my life to take of the priorities without tripping up on the lesser yet still important details
because... I find myself, due to the situation that I've put myself in missing out on so much.
besides the opportunity to visit my brothers, or now my newborn nephew, but the time to spend with friends, or learn, or play, or sleep, or just to enjoy life in one form or another
not long ago, I decided to try my hand a juggling, I started to get the hang of it, yet I haven't been practicing for weeks, due to having other things needing to get done.
I joined the tango club at my school, it was fun, I haven't been to the last 6 or so meetings
for the same reason.
it's the same situation with, EMT class, VEMS (villanova EMS), VTV (villanova TV), and other clubs that I'm a part of, or other hobbies that I want to pursue but haven't the time for.
I wouldn't mind as much if I felt I was making any progress with my school work, but it seems that with every step forward I take, I end up falling behind 3
so I've decided that I must really get a handle on this, before this semester ends, I need to have a day in which all my work is done, and then.... I intend to fly a kite all around campus, visit my brothers and my nephew, then spend some time with friends, and finally... sleep
and everyday will be a new day, I can't keep forgetting the importance of living life
of spending time with those I care about, and those who in turn care about me
of finding time to stop and enjoy the present even if only for a moment
the world stands still for no one, if you miss it, it's gone
there are many a time that I wish that I had known when I was young what I know now, but the most i can do is try and remember what I've learned so I'll know it for the future.
I don't want to miss any more of the world than I already seem to have done.
while I can't change my past, I can shape my future and I intend to do just that.
by the way here's the video of the song for those that want to hear it as well:
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